hey i haven't updated this puppy in a LONG time.

so i won't start now.

Wow, life is rough. i mean, i don't think i have the hardest life ever, it's just that my life is no piece of cake. I wish i could just leave now...go to australia...go fulfill my dreams. i wanna get away from this life that i'm living. i want to grow up...and change...and experience the real world, as frightening as it may be. i'm sick of sitting here being misconceived by so many people around me. everyone thinks they know me and, what frightens me is, maybe they all do. maybe i'm so "status quo," so "typical teenage girl" that they can all predict what my next move will be. i don't want to live like that anymore. i need to move on!

this may be too deep for xanga. whoops.